CASS FOC 2012/2013 OC ♥
Things I’ve found to be true. Part 1. (by prescience)
i am supposed to chuck the old memories away tonight
but it’s dusty and i don’t really want to touch it
not that it’s moldy, but because it’s dusty
i would throw it away someday
i can’t even read it without cringing
so instead of clearing out the old memories,
i added more to the random shit
i’m kinda done with all my assignments so there is time to blog about random shit :D
i’m finally going to read will grayson, will grayson
turns out that josiah the cat passed the book to nat and he passed it to me today
and that’s quite exciting
beckii passed the first season of Big Bang Theory to me
and it will accompany me through the hols and until pretty little liars season three
plus, i had fun terrorizing her with her secondary school song
oh, and this is the lovely daryl
he almost never look bad in any photos
and this was taken on wednesday when we were supposed to go for SFL
below is a simple gif of pictures starring Amanda, Beck and me
i’ve not taken pictures with amanda ever since last year so this is pretty cool,
i guess
and now i guess i’m more willing to take/look at pictures of myself
because i used to be much much much uglier than i am right now
and looking at them makes me really sad because i was never the one
that was considered “pretty”
oh wells, after so long
i’ve got used to the fact that i am never the “pretty one”
who cares anyway!
perfection/beauty is overrated
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I like drinking coffee alone and reading alone. I like riding the bus alone and walking home alone. It gives me time to think and set my mind free. I like eating alone and listening to music alone. But when I see a mother with her child, a girl with her lover, or a friend laughing with their best friend, I realize that even though I like being alone, I don’t fancy being lonely. The sky is beautiful, but the people are sad. I just need someone who won’t run away.
(via word-to-your-mother)
(Source: buddhacoffee)
may 14 is just not a good day
tessa’s phone, the one i’m using now, has broken down and refused to be start up
i’ve done everything that i could
i even prayed but God seems to be ignoring me right now
it’s like He’s been ignoring me lately
and even though i hate to admit this,
but i feel like sometimes He just doesn’t really reply me much
and i feel bad but yeah, it’s the little things that shakes your faith
like of all days for the phone to break down,
why can’t it be when i get my new phone?!
now all the contacts are in that phone and i don’t know if this dumbassfuck sony phone is functioning properly
fuck this shit okay
i don’t usually curse but this shit is just getting the fuck on my nerves and i can’t
UGH
FUCK ALL THE SHIT
plus, i just received darlene’s email and read about the job of the secretary
and it is tedious
like it’s really really something i didn’t really expect
it’s like i have to force myself to grow up and accept that i have tons of work to do
and it feels so alone,
as if i can’t turn to anyone for help and if i ask for assistance,
it means i’m not good enough
i don’t know what this mind of mine is doing to me
but it is sure giving me more stress
(via imgTumble)I find that, when writing bios, it’s really helpful to look at a list or a chart like the one above. Picking two or three traits from each chart and building a character based around them will give you a really interesting bio, because they will serve as a reminder that characters need depth and dimension.
Independent and clever.
VS.
Independent, clever, pretentious, and stubborn.
The first combination doesn’t come with any flaws, whereas the second will provide a more dynamic character.
HEY GUYS, this showed up on my dash this morning, and I thought it would be helpful if any of you are writing characters and don’t want them to come out as picture-perfect Mary Sues! :)
One thing I’d like to add, though, is that you should make sure the character traits don’t conflict in an oxymoronic way…. for example: Ambitious and lazy, or patient and impulsive. WAT. (Believe it or not, I HAVE seen it happen before! Don’t do it!!)
i really really like her outfit
i swear this could easily be the third or fourth time i come across this picture
and it looks better each time
i’ve not talked about HIM for a long time
“the cass club interview today was smooth”
i’d love to say, but i’m not too sure.
every time i feel confident about it,
my mind reminds me that there are more capable people going for the interview
even thinking about it now is so depressing
but i am grateful for today,
sort of,
because i feel better today than i’ve felt for the past week,
and i definitely feel a lot better than last night.
God is great and He answers prayers.
i read this quote yesterday about Him not being early most of the time,
but He is never late,
so i’ll just leave everything to him
thinking too much about it won’t help at all
i’ve tried my best to be as coherent as possible
and i’m super serious about it
so i’ll just… pray for the best
Hiiiiiiiiii!! I’m Hira! (Kylie Kay’s most favourite person ever!)
we will bounce together
everyone’s talking about how fat they are,
even though they are really thin/muscular
when i read it, i just felt even worse about myself,
and i don’t even think it’s possible for that to happen
they are obviously uk 6 or size 0, or muscular,
but they insist that they are fat
and i just don’t see it
like i don’t understand.
if i had their body,
maybe i won’t feel so bad about myself
but they hate it, for some reason i don’t understand
i tell my friends jokingly that i am so ugly sometimes i cry.
and it’s true.
i think my face and my body are ugly
i don’t get a lot of compliments and i don’t mind,
but i get a lot of negativity from my own family since young,
and the idea just stuck
and now i am just so self-conscious.
sometimes i feel okay, but other times i just hate myself
more than it should be, the latter occurs more frequently
some days i feel fine, like i’m completely happy
other days i just hate everything that happened and everyone gets on my nerves
because i hate myself so much that i can’t allow myself to like anything
i don’t know how this was manifested but i think i can figure it out now
and it’s sad because i never wanted to be like this
i’ll be fine in a bit,
i will be, but for now i’m just quite sad
